I keep my money in a sack.

Found some quotes of inspiration by Colin Powell. I need to print them out and put them in my room so I can read them everyday. They are amazing quotes. I highly suggest that you should use them as inspiration for your goals.

"A dream doesn't become a reality through magic; it takes sweat, determination and hard work."

"Success is a result of perfection, hard work, learning from failure, loyalty, and persistence."

"There are no secrets to success. It is the result of preparation, hard work, and learning from failure."





So today in my theatre class we finished our tour of the theatre. We had to go about 80 to 100 feet high going up a ginourmas spiral staircase. I realized I was afraid of heights. My hands were so sweaty. I know that if I continue to face my fears, I will continue to grow comfortable in those situations.

Nothing is going to stop me.

I always say it will just be another brick in my palace. Haha.

Good Day.

“We often see what we expect to see, not what is really there.”

When we expect for something to become true, and it does (because we are expecting it), it is called a “self-fulfilling prophecy.” And most of the time we do receive exactly what we are expecting to receive.

Here is an experiment showing proof of the evidence toward the “New Look Perspective.” It was done by Bruner & Postman.

At a teacher conference of around 350, they gave out essays to all the teachers to grade. One-third of the teachers were told the student who wrote the essay had an above average IQ. One-third were told the student had an average IQ. And one-third were told the student had a below average IQ.

The result was, the teachers told the student had an above average IQ, gave the essay a significantly higher grade. So, the higher the IQ the teacher THOUGHT the student had, the higher the grade they gave the student... even though they were the EXACT SAME essay. They believed the essay was going to be better (because the student was smarter), and they got what they expected.

So again, remember this, “We often see what we expect to see, not what is really there.”


One of the main reasons on my change. I am more up beat and understanding of things. I look at everything with the glass half full. If I see something that might a difficult task for me I will accept the challenge. I push my self to new limits each day. Plus, my humor has never failed me.

Before, I would always be negative towards a lot of things. Then when things were actually positive I would just let it pass me by. The whole time I would pick and choose to look at life negatively. That has now changed.

PS I can not believe how many gorgeous girls are in my fitness and nutrition class! There is easily 15 babes.

I have just been informed that one of my friends looks like a skinnier versian of perez hilton. Pictures later.

That's right! For good this time.
Yes, I mean it. Don't cry.

Okay. Wow, I feel great!

It's not that everything in life is going the right way, it's that I choose to see all things positively. I finally understand myself, and I am comfortable for who I am. I walk around blissfully. It's great! I hold my head up high and I walk to with confidence.

I have to go back to class, but I will begin to post a lot frequently. So if you have not deleted me yet, celebrate.

Bitches, I'm here.

So yeah, still active on this account.

This journal is now friends only. So comment and try to be added to my cool friends list.

Wow, what a fucking night. I am sooo tired, my cousin Jessica came over and brought her friend Koah who was super hyper. The night went by fast with tons of laughs.

Yeah today is the fourth of july. Well I have to work from 11:30 to 5:30. Then I guess I will come back home and light some illegal fireworks. Last night I had a hard time sleeping because they were going off. Well I will update a cool story later on. And I will also post some pictures. :)

Well yesterday went pretty fine, Jessica and Franky took me to the mall because they are nice. I brought no money, I just looked around, we tried to sneak into the movies to see spider man 2, but the manager was standing at the door and he made eye contact with us, so that blew our chances. We then walked to petco, and the reptile section must have been horny or something because we at least saw 3 or 4 tanks of reptiles all over eachother as if it was mating season. Woah. Well yeah, I actually went somewhere friday.

We came back and I believed we watched t.v. I went to the back yard to wieght lift and do some of my Physical Thereopy for my left shoulder. It still kind of hurts me, and I don't know if surgery is yet and option. After that My mom gave me the news that my aunt and uncle want to give away my dog to a better home. WTF? How rude! Damn who the hell would call their nephew and tell them they want to give away OUR dog. That pissed me off, oh wait until I see them it's on. Supposedly they don't like him staying in the garage parts of the day. Well living in my area if we were to have my dog in the backyard he would euither run away or get stolen because he is a Chihuaha. But he is only in the garage when we are out doing things, and for the remainder of the time he is in the house. Damn aunts and uncles.

Someone is trying to steal my shot put in the back yard. Oh yes, and Monday my gun should be here. I cannot wait, I could barely sleep last night.

So I went to Paintball practice at Matt's house in Corona. I just brought my mask and watched the team. I talked to coach about leaving the team to start my own team. He was a bit dissapointed, but he understood. I really don't want to but I kind of do in a way, I think it would be supurb making my own team! And plus it will be hard for me to do that because our team is in Second place.

I came back I don't know what time I did, but I just talked online and stuff. Yesterday I talked to alot of people with their problems and I really helped them out so I feel accomplished.

And today is a saturday, I will be going to a graduation//Going away party. And maybe go to the neighbors and buy some fireworks that rock.

Happy fourth of July everyone!!!

I know most of you don't think of it to be much, but it is a huge accomplishment for me! I got my Alias Intimidator!!! Its a 1,300 dollar paintball gun, I know it is very pricy, but I worked so hard for it. WOW. Actually I orderd it, so it will be here on Monday, but I can't wait untill then! My team will be so damn happy that I got it, I havn't been to practice in like-- forver and a day! So for those of you who care, I got it. Now to move on to the next subject.

Work started off rusty when I first started, I hated it! I still work for the same place, but I am put in a new position this year-- Field Maintnence. Crap dude, that was hard for me. But now, I am getting the hang of it, and bringing in the money to support my friends when we hang out. :) So friends be patient! And yes, today is my first day off!!! I am going to go to Paintball practice at 6:00 and Matt's House, Well, I won't have a Marker (gun) to use, but I will just go over the plays and the signs. I havn't been there forever, I hope my coach and team is happy about the news!

Today though I am hoping to see Spider Man with My mommy. Booyah momma's boyz! Yes, I lover her, and Too bad I don't have the money to treat her, But my brother will come along too as well as my cousin.

I am all alone at the house right now with nothing to do except listen to GREATEST BAND EVER!!! The Doors, along with many other great bands of my liking.

Remember that 68 Mustang my dad promised me a while back? Well, turns out my dad is going to sell it. I can seriously hate him for that, but I won't. He is going to give me a damn 1998 F-150. What the hell? That's okay, it may not look like candy, but it gets me places and it has 6 passengers rather than 5. Yeah, it was hids old truck, I am a bit mad, but I will inherit the 1968 California Special Mustang as I get older. The truck is going to have Texas plates. Because my Dad likes in some Creek out in the middle of nowhere in Texas, it's kind of scary but awesome his yard is GINORMOUS. Well anyway, like any of you livejournal users care.

The accomplishments I did today have been none, except cut the fingers off my angel gloves. I havn't even ate breakfast. All we have is junkfood anyway, and I feel I am getting fat even though everyone swears to me I am not. I weigh 130 I think.

Nothing else is new, just call the cell or suprise me with a text message! 825-0729 If you want the area code just ask, a reminder is its almost 666, but it's not. HAHA. Okay, I am going to go now.

This is me. Deal with it.

( Life )

I got a fucking hectic scedule this summer, I may not even have time to update my livejournal.

• Starting tommorow I will be working from 7 AM through 7 PM at work
• That will be from Mondays-Thursdays ( I took Today off)
• Friday and Saturday I have paintball practice.  This friday I will be at a show.
• Sunday, sometimes I go to church and sometimes I don't thats a wild card day for me.
• This will most likely be my schedule for the whole summer.
• WOW

If anyone wants to hang out please let me know a head of time.  I know I made plans with some of you but those will have to wait, I really don't have time.  Sorry Jason for not going to your party, sorry Vern for not going to the movies, Sorry Vinny for not going over, Sorry Mike for not going to Six flags.

 

EVERYONE I AM SOOO SORRY IF I FORGOT YOU, I HAVE TOO MUCH TIME ON MY HANDS!!!  I GUESS I WILL SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS, OR I HOPE.

my idiot brother.





enjoy

today i went to knotts, i have a year pass. it sucked. so we walked to the Buena Park mall, and saw dodgeball, it wasn't too funny. I love ben stiller though he is one of the best.

today was quite brong actually, I don't want a girlfriend I want my ALIAS INTIMIDATOR!!! 400 more dollars to go, woot woot. And I will rip the field and you wouldn't even know i was there because you would walk one step and be tagged out. ooopsie.

well anyways I am out and all my money for the next month shall go to paintball and paintball only. yayy! and i can finaly get back with my team.

Twas a bright summer day. One boy decided to go to the mall and mess around. Little did he know MISTER MIRROR would pay him a visit, along with CARMELLA the CAMERA. What stories may this bring ladies and gentle men?

( shimmy shim shimm )

"Let this be the beging!" said MISTER MIRROR.
The boy looked trembled with fear and replied, "I will." In a soft tone out of his lips.
MISTER MIRROR vanished in a blink of an eye, only leaving CARMELLA the CAMERA by the young boy's side. He then smiled, and walked away diligently.








FIN

well guess what? I am back! yeah for those of you who don't know i went to texas for a while to visit some of my family, mainly my father. I think he lives like in willow creek texas now or something like that. A itty bitty small town. well anyway texas had a huge storm and the thunder was rumbling the house. I had fun though. I was there for a wekk, we went to the lake and stuff it was fun. I saw a lot of hot chicks. I got ones number, but I had only called her once while i was in texas, and now I am back in California so why bother? It was pointless. There were no parties in willow creek, but OH let me tell you there were cows and farms. HUGE cornfields, you could run for miles. I ran for about a minute and turned back.

The plane ride back was pleasent and free. Since the majoridy of my fAMILY WORKS FOR THE AIRLINE COMPANIES. oops caps lock. i am not used to this keyboard yet. I just got my computer back yesterday, when it was taken away from me in march.

well just now my friend took my marker to go sell it on ebay, sadly i had wasted a lot of money on it, but i want that alias intimidator. if i am lucky i will get 800 for the marker. grr. i am mad about that, i should be a lot happier as soon as i play with the alias.

Oh yeah! i bought that DVD from derder, 300 fps it is awesome, i got it for 15 bucks and i got a free derder shirt with it! the thing that sucks is my mom will probably not approve of it. it says "Derder Productions. Almost better than porn" and my mom may be offended, i will wear it when she doesn't see.


Tommororw i am going to El Rancho's graduation,a dn I am supposed to go to Venice High's graduation, but nobody informed me when it will be.

Well, I ended up going paintballing yesterday. My Autococker ended up being an Autochoper. Sigh. Well I had to re constructure my eye, the store had pinched it and gave it little slack so it was sticking out of the hole. Grr. Well I went and walked around watched the Stone Assasins prctice, and talk to the black guy ( I do not know his name, but he was tall).

MONDAY

Well me and Rachelle are starting to talk more, there is a good chance she and I will get back together. She is heavily addicted to drugs, acid for the most part. I am scared if I will ever do acid, or even attept it. But mainly I will help her first. AmI desprate? Or is it her fashionate looks that take me away? I really want a girlfriend this summer, and is this really the right move? I am still debating in my mind about getting together. Sigh again. I failed my English final today, I can care less, I will just pass with my average D. Well, I Aced my health final, but come on thats health.

Want to know something scary? My friends were actually planning on shooting up their own school. I think I need to switch friends, I have lost 5 over deaths, 3 of the deaths were caused by drugs. Bah, what to do.

FRIDAY

well okay, my weekend started off with a detention after school. grrr. but it was fun, i have a great imagination, so the whole time i sat there i just though about my whole junior year. the good times and the bad. and the half hour of my stiffness flew by like a bird in the sky.

SATURDAY

hmm, oh yes. i wake up to get ready to go down to my loval paintball shop which is 5 miles from where i live, I bought some angel gloves, a V force Profiler mast and a new tank cover(circle). I get the news that they are MOVING!!! what! well turns out they are moving even farther for me, which is about. . . hmm, 15 miles or 20 miles now. grr to them. well i ended up spending a good 150 dollars. but the gloves are absolutley worth it, making a big difference from going to full finger. well yeah, non of you care about that because none of you paintball. well most don't.

so after that we went to jiffy lube and a car wash that was boring, nothing to do there. we went back home to pick up my cell phone and I brushed my teeth. i would then be driven to my schools graduation to support the seniors. yeah i was there and it was some what boring untill the end. after the ceramony i hung out with mitch. we needed a ride to the beach so I called Tammy and she is so damn nice, she wen out of her way to pick us up. Goodness I love her. in the car was: Tammy, Amanda, Tammy's aunt, Mitch, and I.

On the way there, we listened to some arrow 93.1 *big smile* me and mitch were singing to some classic hits.and some big freeway turns i would lean and crush amanda, little did i know that she would do the same to me on the opposite turns. we stopped by an albertsons to get some weeners for hot dogs and me and mitch were making absoluteley dumb jokes. after leaving albertsons we would then get dropped off at the beach, a very crowded one if I may add. well around the fire pits that is. so we were dropped off at jack in the box, and looked for a near by pit, but we were un succesfull. we began a journey to find one, walking about a mile or so, and then finding some people departing from where they stood. yes, we took it. so we were there, with bread and weenies, and me and mitch were throwing stupid things in the fire like socks, seaweed, sunblock, soda bottles, firecrackers. yepp.

the night was joyfull. the kids came in groups, gradually, and casually. first it was andy and Daniel G to show up. later on it would be Andrew John and Jeremy Dyer, Ashley, Kristen, Nick, Brittney C. and Brittney L. Veronica, Michelle J., Amber, Tammy (another one), and devin, who showed up last, it was ironic, being that it was afterall, her party. she was there a good half hour. she is still loved. Lauren cam for about 5-10 minutes to say she showed up? who knows.

The night was awkward, me and mitch wrestled on the sand, and i saw some random guy pass by and mitch told me to ask for healp with pinning him down. Mitch had no idea he was really going to do so. so i backed off, and there layed Mitch with this long blonde hair kid by the name John. on hif Pectoralis Major. *gay moment*. I laughed my teeth out, and put them back in. Little did I know, that would be a turning point that nigh, making this John fellow, be of acceptance of "the group".

We played stupid games like running towards the water and then racing it back. If you have been to a beach, you might have some idea of what I am speaking of. Daniel made that heroic game, but he would then be eliminated along with Andy, John, Brittaney C. the water is mighty powerfull. they would then walk away with sad faces, and water marks up to their kness, sad, but I then was crowned champion, they put seaweed on my head for a crown. JUST KIDDING!!! I just won the game. We played for a good 10-15 minutes, amanda would later on join, but she was okay, not as professional as Daniel.

From what I heard that John fellow, grabbed Amanda, in the breast area, and good thing Andrew taught him a lesson. That John fellow, also came from behind and tickled Brittney C. GRR to him.

One final story would be me, Jeremy, and Mitch going to the lifegaurd tower and planning to jump off it. I was chosen to be the first. as i began to jump. the boys told me "Lifeguard!" and I was blinded by the light of the truck nearby, yes the lifeguard truck. Struck by terror, I would jump off quickley, and land on my left hand in which I sprained. All three of us ran towards the beach. and we ditched the lecture of the lifeguard, who would have probably told us why it said "Do not go on tower."

The night was coming to an end, and we would walk back to jack in the box, for Amanda's bus driver mother to pick us up in her 11 passenger bus. we all barely fit, and we went and dropped mitch at home. My momwas very mad at me that night she called a lot, and the plans changed about 10 times for me. odd. well after we went to the bowling alley, Mitch and Andrew would not be there to joing the fun.

SUNDAY

Yeah so we were at the bowling alley, it was 12, and devin and her friends would go bowling i was just there for the company, and for the good talks, I got to talk to Michelle, which I havn't talk to in a while, she is really pretty, and single. but i knew i had no chance, and Boy she has changed so much. there were no funny stories to tell about the bowling alley, mainley because it was just bowling. ther is this one story, but I rather not tell anyone, or at least post it. for those who were there may have known the story, or the situation perhaps. but please, do not let it get out. *smile*. well anyway, the bowling alley would close at 2 and everyone was leaving we said our byes, and congratulations to Devin and Ashley, Lauren went to some other party. Sad.

I went to my friend fredy's house, i was tired and played with his paintball gun, and went to sleep.

I woke up early like at 10:00 and my mom would pick me up, take me home. I would take a nap.

And right now, I am in a situation where If i am going paintballing or not. Either tombstone or hollywood sports. we still do not know, and it is going to be 9. we need to spend the night at eachother's house's too. but I hope to go paintballing period. tommorow.

i hope you read this. bye.

this friday will give me one more week of school! Then senior year. . . but what I want is a girlfriend this summer, I have been kind of lonely as of late.

Okay I am getting real tired of loosing friends. I am getting real tired of my so called "friends" ignoring me. What's up? Do I just have bad luck of loosing friends? Well, I believe my friends should talk to me, and stay in touch with me, ans things like that. I feel no love. Seniors. . . you will be missed. Other friends, show me some love.